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Life generally speaking [Saturday November 15th, 2008 at 10:57am] [ mood | creative ] It has been a million and 15 years so I've been on here. I didn't even realize that I updated this last year sparingly....... I miss high school!!! :( Honestly, its just the best times I'll probably ever have and everybody was right who told me that I'll miss it when I'm gone Gheeshhhhhh Lots has changed in the past year, but Traverino and me are still together thank the lord!! Elisha is actually moved on in Chesterfield, but moving again the 1st of March Where to?? She doesn't know! I still live with Travis and his family, but I need more freedom here I actually had moved into my g-mas house for about a month in and a 1/2 until my dads clonzepam needing family made Travis, my sis, and me move out for no reason because their nuts !! College deft. blows, but I at least I get to have social time there I am a workaholic slave and am I sick of it, but thats life for ya... comment.

smoke another one [Friday January 4th, 2008 at 12:31am] today was very chilly!!! aaron G and me chilled out and watched some shweet movies i only have two more days left at target!!! :( cvs blows!!! chicka chicka yeah!!! comment.

strawberry fields foreverrrrrrrr [Wednesday October 24th, 2007 at 6:20pm] Hhhmmm...I just got back from a nice long run and it felt amazing! I haven't ran since the summer. I found something out today about someone, and I'm not mad at her, but it's like every time I tell her to not do something with a certain someone or someones she does it anyway. I am not a conceited person, but I think she is jealous of Travis and mines relationship. She has never had one and keeps trying to get one in the wrong way. But, what am I to do? I've tried helping her a ton of times. I don't think she'll ever learn comment.

1 year [Thursday October 18th, 2007 at 8:40pm] [ mood | creative ] Trav, the love of my life and me have been going out for over a year now! I love Halloween!!!! Its kinda funny because I hate hate scary movies yet I am in love with Halloween!! Last year I was a french maid, but that was back when Elisha and me were going through some rough stupid times, and contrary to what some people still think we don't strawberry and banana anymore! JOE! Hhmmm much has changed since I've last written Elisha my BF like THIS has moved far away and I see her about once every 3 weeks I live w/ Travis, but we want to get an apartment once we save up the money Mis is coming over for a late night spooky walk INTENSE! Hahhaha Love its bangs it I miss my daddy "diamond master' Robby I heart him w/ all I've got comment.

its been a while [Wednesday July 4th, 2007 at 10:04pm] Its insane how high school just ended..... I've already lost quite a few friends... A couple days ago was Johnnys 1 year death.... I miss him so much... I cry for him almost every day... when I remember Gabriella, him, and me driving around after school while he smoked his blunt.... I miss him so much.... comment.

[Saturday September 23rd, 2006 at 10:39am] mis and me are doing my hair today for the photoshoot friday! :) i cant wait! and i get to miss ecole! this school year sucks...school is more boring than usual i miss all my graduated friends...i never realized it until now but i really only have about 7 friends in my grade... i mean ones that i talk to alot...everyone is graduated and i hate walking alone...i've got emily, ash, ang, trav, brad, julio, elisha, mara, cate and christina...but cate, chirsitina, and xiomara....they just walk with eachother...so i dont really have them... i just want to be out of school so bad...the kids are so little and immature to me... ive just grown up alot recently.... i am so tired everyday... its school ...then come home for 1/2 a hour...then work until 9:30 and i just come home and pass out because i am so exhausted...people are getting mad at me but i cant just hang out anymore because i pretty much work every weekday....but its ok because i've got saturday nights for friends...i hate asshole men that come into my work...but i like the people i work with....this one old lady named linda is so cute...she bakes brownies every day and brings them in for everyone...aaww its so cute...but she is leaving soon i am going to miss her so much...even though i havent even known her for long....i love jacque shes so funny...and then melanie she is this tough girl but its so funny...shes acts tough and like she is some badass bur shes really sweet...and miles is just weird with his little italain accent but hes ok..my boss is so pretty...she could be a model and she has these 3 little girls that always come in and they are little dancers and they are so cute and pretty...work is annoying and exhausted and chaotic but.....i just love all of them.... i want to start going to shows again...i miss that music now.... comment.

[Tuesday August 15th, 2006 at 11:37pm] When will I learn to quit you? This is getting a bit ridilious. comment.

[Wednesday August 9th, 2006 at 7:00pm] whitetrash sluts but shes my friend or is she? 2 // comment.

[Sunday July 30th, 2006 at 8:11pm] Whoa oh oh Ooh hooh No No No [Verse 1:] See, I dont know why I liked you so much I gave you all, of my trust I told you, I loved you, now thats all down the drain Ya put me through pain, I wanna let u know how I feel [Chorus:] Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now Fuck the presents might as well throw em out Fuck all those kisses, they didn't mean jack Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now Fuck the presents might as well throw em out Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back [Verse 2:] You thought, you could Keep this shit from me, yeah Ya burnt bitch, I heard the story Ya played me, ya even gave him head Now ya askin for me back Ya just another act, look elsewhere Cuz ya done with me Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now Fuck the presents might as well throw em out Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now Fuck the presents might as well throw em out Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back Oh oh Uh huh yeah Oh oh Uh huh yeah Oh oh Uh huh yeah Oh oh Uh huh yeah Ya questioned, did I care You could ask anyone, I even said Ya were my great one Now its, over, but I do admit I'm sad. It hurts real bad, I cant sweat that, cuz I loved a hoe Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now Fuck the presents might as well throw em out Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back comment.

4 1/2... [Tuesday July 25th, 2006 at 10:30am] Why is it that when something finally gets good, something happens to end it all, and why is it never strong enough to continue on through it all. Why is it always like this? 2 // comment.

Where were you while we were getting high? [Sunday July 16th, 2006 at 11:05pm] Herfs graduation party was last night... I saw you today and realized how far apart we've grown. I know I should talk to you and ask you how you've been doing, and I really wish that I could, but it's just occurred to me that we're strangers now. You don't know me anymore, much less want to. It's okay that you've moved on. I know that everything is different now, I've been staying strong. comment.

Rant... [Friday July 14th, 2006 at 4:27pm] [ mood | enraged ] I decieded I like to write with good grammar now... The thing about social drinking: In the end, it's the drinking that causes the scene, not the other way around. You grow to relish the buzz, regardless of the situation.... Once you're there, really there inside that "moment, with its neighborly warmth and conversation, it's hard to tell what's responsible for producing emotion. What's responsible for the light-headed feeling?? Is it the Molson, or the boy who is running his fingers through my hair? Are you chatty because you're drunk or because you're connecting with someone on a level that you have never experienced before? To an outsider, the distinction is an easy one to make. But when you're seventeen and female, when you experience these feelings first and later only when you are drinking, it becomes a question of which came first, the liquor or the Chris or the Nick or .....? comment.

[Tuesday July 11th, 2006 at 8:14pm] i am so bored and pissed off right now... the past 3 nights i've tried to make plans with people and none of them ended up working out... after i take a shower and do my hair and make up all good for nothing...for 3 or 4 nights this has happened to me.... mis is being gay and thats really sweet mis.. that when people are mad at you you flip out on them and call them until they talk to you... yet im mad at you and you cant call me back or text me.. but you can hang out w/ nat and also call elisha to ask her if she wants to hang out... well thats awesome... i do nothing all day except talk to trav which is kind of boring since trav doesnt even talk alot... nothing interesting has happened lately except zachs on saturday was insane... and there is no way i would write about any of that in this journal... soo whatever my sister is mad at me cause she told me someone called her when i was at zachs and told her i was so wasted and getting laid... well yes i was wasted but i wasnt getting laid... sooo yeah thats sweet.. no one calls me anymore and my family is home from upnorth now...soo i guess its hell life again... 3 // comment.

whatev [Monday February 20th, 2006 at 3:40pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | hidden in plain view ] whats the point in being in a relationship when you never see the person? whats the point when all there friends hate you? whats the point when there mom is just stupid? and makes it so hard for the relationship to work because she ruins the entire relationship? i want a older boyfriend And these cold winter nights, without you next to me It feels like twenty below Frostbite on my heart This pain and suffering are feelings that you don't know Does it feel like, feel like twenty below ♥ comment.

my list... [Tuesday May 17th, 2005 at 8:57pm] [ mood | sick ] list of things i hate: 1. girls that act stupid when they really arent...then the boys that actually the girl for that... 2. boys that think they are "players" and use girls 3. being jealous (which i am alot) 4. miss vancoille aka...the devil 5. girls that say they are in love with a different boy every week (and somehow no matter how annoying or loud or stupid or slutty they are they still end up with the boy) 6. blake v. 7. being sick 8. fighting w/ people 9. people that call your house and no one answers the phone but they still keep calling every 3 minutes until someone answers 10. cold weather 11. country music (ok well i do like a couple songs but mostly i cant stand it) 12. school 13. francais 14. sports(except running i love running) 15. girls that think they are "tough girls" list of things i love: 1. sleeping 2. d.q. 3. reading good books 4. love (well even though i have no one like usual...i still am writing it) 5. good music 6. when your horoscope tells you something good 7. water 8. make-up 9. making lists 10. friends 11. chinese food 12. lyrics 13. writing 14. the color blue 15. people that can hold a conversation 16. driving and blasting really stupid music and singing really loud w/ missy 17. starbucks 18. running 19. kissing 20. laughing 21. shows...the people at the shows... 22. dancing really stupid 23. mackinaw island fudge 24. wheel of fortune 10 // comment.

odd... [Sunday May 8th, 2005 at 12:04am] [ mood | thirsty ] i found this is audreys lj and i took it for myself and it freaks me out because it is actually me exactly...i guess thats sort of sad...or weird...or idk... Your Birthdate: January 20 Your birth on the 20th day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your reading. The 2 energy provided here is very social, allowing you to make friends easily and quickly. Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group. You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection. You are very prone to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil. It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in. When things are going well, you can go just as far the other way and become extremely affectionate. What Does Your Birth Date Mean? comment.

[Sunday March 6th, 2005 at 8:09pm] ok well i deleted anyone on my friends list who didnt add me back...this is friends only for now on...so add me if you still want to be... comment.

said i loved you but i lied.. [Sunday March 6th, 2005 at 1:36pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | fob ] yesterday mare and me went to the mall...it was in port huron...we felt like we were in the ghetto...i bought a new roxy shirt (hey when dont i?)...and then i was poor and had no money for pacsun or hollister...so we went to target...which i wasnt going to complain...i love target...i was gonna buy this blue dress for that spring fling dance but then i was like naw and bought this pink skirt....yeah people in that store were bitching alot...idk why...then we went to taco bell and then bought some yougurt...yeah we rule....well yeah im bored...idk where anybody is...but no one seems to home...i want to go somewhere... comment.

[Wednesday March 2nd, 2005 at 3:29pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | senses fail ] all of a sudden everybody wants to start running with me...woo hoo...yesterday megan and me stayed after school for 2 1/2 hours or something for running and abs and circuits and all that... well it only took us like a hour but then we were just talking to people...dillon and craig stole the hat...they were distracting me and i had to buy colin a pop cause hes like a little baby...we were talking to frodo and abs....interesting times...snowcoming was ok...emily and me were dressed like whores...well not as much as some of the girls...we were classy ones i thought...emily told me she liked it though...it made me laugh for a good five minutes...craig and dillon and cory were doing some weird dance and they looked like they were doing each other up the butt...george is a good dancer i must admit... 1 // comment.

[Sunday February 27th, 2005 at 12:53pm] [ mood | sad ] wow...i didnt even really know him...but i just seen his brother last night...and its sad to me how he had to go home and find out his brother is dead...i mean dead...its so hard to say....my sister is bawling....i dont know what to do in these situations.... 4 // comment.

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